How I Broke through Exhaustion into Spirit

Recently I've found myself physically and mentally exhausted. Fatigue has often been a challenge for me in my life - through various illnesses and irregular routines, plenty of change and transformation, not to mention parenthood of young children. However, recently an incredible fall out of sick colleagues has meant I'm working most days in the care home. On top of looking for a new car, self-employment and supporting ill family members and children, I've essentially been working to my limit. I barely had time or energy for meditation!

Why had I attracted this challenging situation? It all came from a question; what is the meaning of taking 'time off'? I had realised that there was indeed a part of me that wanted time off from life itself - that identified with the exhaustion I felt from having so much to hold in my life: employment and self-employment, two families, a main household and a tiny house, living in the expanded 5D reality while still maintaining the necessary 3D constructs.

In the upcoming shift, things are likely the get pretty challenging in physical living. Not only that, but every part of our lives and karmic journeys will be brought to the surface to be worked through. So, isn't it only fitting that as someone who has committed to facilitating that shift and supporting others through it, I should be able to hold space for a multitude of challenges, all the while being physically and mentally challenged to the max? It seems the universe has sent this 'gift' in preparation. An upgrade in the spiritual pipe and how much it can allow to pass through it.

How could I do it all and stay sane? How could I move through each day without losing it? It was certainly a question I was asking myself as the end no longer seemed to be in sight. I noticed symptoms of burnout emerging. My mind becoming slower and I felt overwhelmed at the thought of simply having to complete every-day tasks. My body felt like it had run a marathon.

Following the soul

First of all, you might say it's a question of boundaries. Why not simply say "no" to something that was pushing me beyond my perceived limit? Well, when acting from soul, the question becomes, "what way of being is invited of me now?" Sometimes that is indeed to make clear boundaries - to stand your ground in your sovereignty. Or, to take much needed integration time after intense work or inner change. However, that didn't seem to be the case here. First of all, if I hadn't worked then there were few remaining people to do the job, all of whom have been exhausted too. It's a home of people requiring 24 hour care, so the job doesn't just stop at the end of the working day. Secondly, and more importantly, it seemed my soul was yearning to break through something; the identity around being exhausted.

Saying "no" to taking on more shifts would have interrupted the inquiry my soul was having around identity with physical and mental exhaustion. This is the important distinction about following the soul. It's not orientated towards making life easier. Instead, it's all about what it can learn about itself, about life, about spirit. However, neither is it about intentionally seeking out the challenging situation. It's about the process of confronting the internal limitations which inhibit your full divine expression.

The universe turned things up a notch. This was what my soul wanted, even if the human 'me' didn't. The universe said "Surprise! Here's another week." I went through all the classic stages of grief in an afternoon, before finally arriving at acceptance.

The Breakthrough

At this point I took great strength and clarity in the Buddhist concept of being completely immersed in everything that you're in. Not thinking about anything else. Even when I was eating, I instructed those around me not to talk to me. I wanted to be completely present in the moment. This was a life saver for me at that time. Slowly, the world became less overwhelming and more manageable.

I realised that the only thing still providing resistance and making things 'hard' through all of this was some identity with the body and mind still hanging around. I've worked hard over the years to realise myself as beyond these things. I am a spiritual being having a human experience. However, in becoming exhausted because of a constant barrage of daily tasks and to-do's, that awareness had retreated to a degree into the background.

So, I centered as often as I could in non-identified presence - that sacred ground within that feels like silence. When in this place, it makes no difference what situation I find myself in or what state my body and mind are in. I'm always just invited to be my highest self. So, from this place I could fully engage in any situation I found myself in, despite the fatigue. Why should I let my physical state get in the way of what my soul was called to express in each moment?

Check out this video on 'Dissolving Identity' for more insight on how this works.

From there it was all about working through neural programs which kept me in the old consciousness. Then, softening tightness in the body and energy field as any tension that had been stored gradually released.

This is how I broke through the identity around exhaustion. The physical world is still throwing curve balls my way - I'm not through that yet. However, I always have a reminder that it's the state of being that gets me through this - the awareness of non-identified presence gives me the spiritual energy I need . From this place, anything seems possible.

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